Dude. PMS this time around has been hardcore. Actually, it's more like DMS (DURING menstrual syndrome). I cry about everything. And I am some sort of exposed raw nerve that everyone keeps getting on. Get off my raw nerve people! This shit better even out because I am not down with being so touchy about everything. I'm already a sensitive little flower I don't need the hormones to make it worse, thankyouverymuch.
This month the husband and I are eating nothing but chicken and fish and vegetables. It's my idea, I must lose weight before I start cramming my fingers down my throat out of desperation. We have done really well and I'm closer today to getting all this pregnancy weight off than I was two weeks ago. Yea for progress. I really should get a gold star for eating so much seafood, since I don't even like seafood. But I'm eating it and it's not making me gag. There are several things I like now: Tuna steak, flounder, tiliapia and salmon. Not too shabby for me! I am eating other things besides fish and vegetables, obviously, I'm still eating fruit and cheese and dairy products because I can't give up everything like I did that one time a few years ago. I read the book Eat To Live and I credit the change in diet I made after reading it with getting my smell back. And I kind of thought I would always eat that way but hahahahah. Not. Every time I try and go back to that strict program I fail miserably and feel like shit, so this time, I'm just modifying and trying my best to eat well because Lord knows I'm not working out these days and I told my husband before we started this that if I wasn't going to work out I had to seriously tighten up my diet. And I have and I'm making progress, the number on the scale is going down and that's all I want right now. I don't expect to lose 10 pounds a week, but I do expect for that number to go down and it is, so I'm happy. Although I would kill for a steak or a burger right now. God. I nice juicy burger sounds so freakin' good to me. I can't think about it too much or I will cave in and go get some shitty ass burger from a fast food joint and then feel bad about myself and say mean things inside my head to myself about it.
I had to have an uncomfortable conversation with the BFF and it was only uncomfortable for me because I have issues! She watches the baby during the week while I'm at work and said something off the cuff about his care and that thing was not ok with me but I had a hard time saying that to her because I do not want to mess up our situation and I also couldn't tell if I was just over-reacting because of the whole period thing. I think I did over-react but if you can't over-react with your best friend, who can you over-react with? There's a reason she is my BFF, we can talk anything out. Always. I'm so lucky to have her.
